January 21, Monday 2013 10:30 P.M. Dr. Martin Luther King Day ~ Presidential Inauguration, Second Term Of Barack Obama

These plans ahead of mine were barely inescapable from the grasps of Death Itself last May 13, 2012 on Mother’s Day. Before placement at this new residency and this new home entrusted to me by my mother whom both of us barely survived the wreckage from being hit aside. It is near two-hundred days since the tragedy and my body aches almost every time I awaken. Not all of our airbags had deployed properly besides the side impact on my front passenger side. Since May, to encourage goodness throughout wherever I am present from after awakening for the next day at first was in a state of denial and yet to experience the pains lingering to surface from the unavoidable crash.

Since I was near Twenty, there is a drug… A psychotropic I had been prescribed Ziprazadone on up to about mid October of 2012. I noticed even had after my mother and I moved into this new residency, we were exchanging aggression coming from me and I began to surely realize not only had this been accounted but too there was a switch in the manufacturer of this same drug because my insurance does not cover the other treatment virtually the same as the Ziprazadone and with it’s same name as well. You’d think I’d be happy and coming from me this doesn’t take much to be that while despite of treatments to healing from the crash, not much if I can remember were there special administration of medicinal usage to reduce the pain all this time on up to now even. I’ve been through much and my mind is trained to block out some pain when necessary to such notice.

Last May there was a very severe wreck with my mother and myself while on our way to see her parents’ grave near Sheppler Church Rd. I at the time was beginning to try for the matter to lien away from a disability pay from Social Security while working with Avid software and M-Audio hardware to pursuit the arts of creating or engineering audio into sound music during late 2007 and launched some beginning work as to test waters in October of 2008. Some of which was conflicting with future statistics and a promotion on the front address of Amazon might had been curtailed to my profile settings which could had been possible to render the promotional advertisement irrelevant to other acquired statistic cover I had accounted for while too promoting my music on several media providers. I was not aware that I am permissible to continue receiving benefits if it was to choose so this way besides what revenue comes in with my work besides being disabled.

There was also another point I have to mention I said to my mother while after near one hundred days without glasses or contacts and though technically blind, my eyes were adjusting without them from throughout that time. As we turned onto a road leading on up to that moment of impact, seconds before, I looked to my right and had seen light green grassy terrain for a distance while too noticing the light green Honda CRV model coming towards what appeared to be an intersection ahead. I said to my mother notice the CRV and it’s matching the terrain. She was in control. During that moment, 101.7 FM was lightly being played onto the car’s stereo. Another song had just come onto the station and it was inappropriate so while throughout the time spent with my mother that day and to that point where I turned off the stereo quietly so she can pay attention. Regardless of telling her the other vehicle was nearing us ahead of time. We collided at near forty-seven mile per hour on my front passenger side of the car I was a passenger in.

Some of you would say why hadn’t you had glasses? I can easily tell you there was a very severe bedbug infestation at my previous place of residency I had to put up with for near five years straight to no avail and I need to have them close by. Twice I can remember they were stepped on and the ones I have now to replace with yet another pair I was not notified they were in where to use before that disaster came into effect now too are missing a piece because of my strength when I clean the lenses. Therefor, I was without glasses and my eyes at best to adjust over near one hundred days after the last pair “then” had broken were all I had for a second pair of eyes to help my mother in the vehicle.

Since quitting ‘Geodon’ cold turkey since it was prescribed in medical terms as an anti-psychotic and or mood stabilizer, the side-effect to me are far more threatening to me or someone else around me when used and I am tonight still with an ongoing recovery from this too. Last Fall before my biological dad’s mother had passed I was planning on writing her a letter about then prescribed medicines were seriously robotizing my emotions and maybe undergoing a lobotomize. The letter never made it. I had been able to visit her before her memory would be affected so such to where she would not recognize me. I was happy to meet at her place of care and she did recognize me and pointed her finger after talking with her son for me to behave. Have I ever tried and continue to.

There’s much I think of about Dr. Martin Luther King… A repetitious moment crosses my mind there where he sat aside of the front door to the room he was determined to feel safe in and move onward. Someone was sitting next to Dr. Martin Luther King in this thought I have. It was not safe obviously and there were quick to a growing crowd of people below. It had happened. He was taken.

My first vote ever was a registered Democrat and for a President Barack Obama with a Vice President Joseph Biden. Today, I can say I hadn’t been pulled into a vote I did not want to make then. With comparison to the I.T. operatives in global mediation with so much happening I could not make a clear decision to know what for most all of us today is safe to decide and even for myself when feelings of discontent come about onto my private end of media to make such choices for not only you I could not vote this time and I don’t think I am going to throw what is in place now out of what too is balancing itself back into a supportive decision making everywhere.

Some may be asking why I don’t make great strive to internet use today if I can type now? I’m trying to. When I favorite the photo of Michelle Obama’s grandparents’ Bible, I too knew Barack was standing as Michelle had shown this to him some time ago and looked down at it while her holding it up for him to see during unsure times in their lives. For me I cannot discredit this belief for only myself and understand this is from a single perspective while to share in hopes just as equivocal care is placed back before these additional eyes.