I’d like to research my mind some with this getting onto this text here in front of you. There has been some time passing since I had been lead to believe what I was placing onto A.B.C. News’ website was something we are all meant to understand and to see this with full clarity or have someone who can interpret what was posted onto A.B.C. News while without killing the messenger is something I too am sure many would appreciate the individual who gave that messenger wisdom with pertaining to I Chronicles 21:1 and II Samuel 24:1. However, this has not been happening over the past decade out of fear of ourselves… Fear is an adversary obviously and what government had created by their standards was something far greater than someone with fear. There being for example what we listen to on our receivers and see on televisions are government regulated and there is today, no way around this. Government is too expensive to regulate and too costly emotionally also today.

These two verses were handed to me to interpret what best I could at a time I had been practically seized, used up and left to convulse all alone from severe Tartive Dyskenesia after a cold turkey withdrawl from a very powerful controlled medicinal substance known as Haldol timing near about a decade while too other drug administrations used. What cold heareted bastard would with their wisdom, their higher degrees of education and gaming on his on family would leave something or someone to rest in this state knowing what he went through and driving his son into absolute madness where seeming only death would be of a resolution?

Nearing Fall in 1997 I was watching C-Span with this very man and members of Congress to have oversight within a committee of transnational crime with their Russian and U.S. counterparts… I pushed record immediately and held onto this recording which I still have to this day while in many edits and inclusion with the song titled, ‘Crude.’ [full edit] At that time I was on the drug Prolixin which undoubtedly had been exacerbating a mild sense of withdraw from my community leading towards a full diagnosis of Schizophrenia. Perhaps some change of fashion would have been encouraging too… I am poor to this day and now thirty-three with one of several case workers whom rotate with my psychological treatment, one of which is defying Stan-Hewitt relativity to my mother during one of my unusual moments of crisis mode.

To think for myself and have someone else whether they are rogue in decisions for theirselves with how to they, our world is interpreted where as to myself I am not as connected as person to person besides internet and this with respect of culture and ethnicity… practice overall, is no different than my beliefs. The only transparency that falls aside or next to this argument is the fact that I have nothing to claim other than a tenacious morale and this also a deterrent.